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Hello D baby,

I love you <3

I know you won't come here, its for safekeeping :)

I'm always complaining, telling you to be sweeter. more romantic. make me feel unexpected pleasantly. BUT, thats because I want you to make me feel more loved, though I know that you really love me :) I'm sorry that I'm such a silly girl, always doubting you & making you promise me things to make me feel secure. And you are really good to me, because no matter how unreasonable I am, you'll always promise me :)

Though there are many times when you forgot to call me, and reaching home late, and going to drink, I know I can't restrict you if you don't take my words seriously. Darling, I want assurance, I want me to be the only one for you, and that I think..I'm demanding by far heheh. But you still love me all the same, even if you feel angry inside, you never lost your temper at me. I don't know if I should be grateful or grateful, I know you're the best [:

My dear has been doing little things for me, and I just don't notice it, because I'm used to your care and help. You'll always help me carry my bag voluntarily. Walk me home no matter how tired you are. Never willing to quarrel with me whenever I wish to pick a fight. Following me around when I need you. Send me cute little messages when we were still schooling, even though we are just next to each other. Being very patient with me when I make a fuss out of the tiniest thing. Spending on me when you don't even have much. Always feeding me food when you are having lunch, though I had mine. Praising me to be pretty :) Telling me 'ILoveYou, Baby' is always pleasing to me ear & tingling in my heart. Telling each other our secret codes when we are holding hands :D Taking neoprints together & looking at them. Telling me I'm Number 1! And many many! <3 

Baby, you've always been on my mind & in my heart, and I miss you even though we see each other everyday :) You are important to me, I love you darling kukuhead piggy! :D

Have you forgotten why you called me your honeystar?
I miss you calling me that.

Love,
your baby <3

I hate this feeling now cos, I'm all confused & I don't know what to do lahhhhhhhhhhh ): ): ):
WHY do others look so happy all the time & get what they want so easily.
I'm not trying to complain here, but I'm really in a foul mood D:



Can't things be how it used to be?

I know this won't happen, but I'm wishing.


I need someone who appears when I need a shoulder, to give a damn about what I say, and be sensitive enough to decipher my words.

I wish theres someone who will appear at my doorstep just to see me, to deliver food to me when I'm hungry in the middle of the night, to appear at the bus stop when I go home, to bring me home when I'm all alone.

I need this someone whom I will miss at any random moments, and give me a call/text without me waiting.

I wish for someone to say "I miss you", knowing that I do too even without saying.

I need this you, to appear in my life and tell me what I want to hear.


And maybe I'm just not good enough, for this someone to do everything for me. 




I'll just carry on waiting till this special someone comes along.

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I'm glad you're back from holidayyyyy [: miss you loadssssssss even though its only a few days! HEHE its great to see you again today love (: Am really really happy that you appeared at my doorstep today, I needed that! Was freaking hell bored & afraid at home HAHAHA, some loser right. thats the one & only time I'm going to be sucha loserrrrrrr [;
I think I'm an asshole for being a little angry with you just because I waited one hour for you ): ): ): sorry! But I hate shopping alone hehhhh.  

I had no idea you read my blog & got me my JJ album which is my 2nd christmas present!!! :D :D :D Ahem, but its the 3rd according to you, since you sent us a christmas card :}

I wish I could spend more time with you todayyyyy, like how we always do. The times we spent together in AHS were the best, meeting everyday & not having to worry about not being able to see you. However, I know we can't always look back to the past especially when you are leaving MJC & I have to go through J2 alone. Seriously, this is not going to be easy for me.

There isn't anyone like you, no one can tolerate me better than you do. Now, I do not have anybody to rely on in school, and this sucks ):  
I'm trying to get used to life without you in school. I remember whenever I'm upset and cry during AHS days, you'll always be there, even if you had to come up to my classroom. Theres always someone for me to hug and whine to, and you never ever complain about me. I love you, I really do.

MJC was a new start where I had to depend lesser on you, but still, I can see you around. I predict next year to be not-my-year, HAHA, so I have to be even stronger without you in school. But anyway, I hope you'll really choose a course you desire when you get into poly, and be happierrrrr :D.



I love you forever even if forever doesn't exist.
& thankyou for that album, bff. ^^